Since my last post, I have not seen any doctors. I am planning to have a final consultation with the neurologist I most trust next week.
With that said, I continue to feel nerve pains on an on-and-off basis. It can be quite intense at times, but at the same time, it comes-and goes, moment by moment. I do have moments where I feel complete fine, and others that are less so. It does not affect my ability to physically do things, and for that I am very grateful. People I interact with would never know I have a problem unless I told them. Nonetheless, it can be challenging to deal with, and so my mental strength has been building with time.
The worst is always when I’m trying to sleep, or when my body is getting into a relaxed state. I tend to feel nerve firings most in this circumstance. At the same time, I feel my mind has, in some way, adapted to the situation – and it interferes with my sleep a lot less so now, despite feeling the nerve firings going into sleep. My pain tolerance threshold seems to have increased quite a bit with time.
I do get regular nerve sensations that fire in the area of my heart. I think a year ago, this would cause me the most amount of worry, as it can feel very ominous. I’ve been told by multiple neurologists that this is a purely a sensory sensation. While I still feel this today – perhaps more regularly and perhaps with some more intensity, at the same time my mind is quite at peace with it. And every time my nerves fire in this manner, I try to further the process of my mind becoming peaceful with this situation.
Another symptom which is somewhat more prevalent, is that sometimes if I scratch my skin, I can feel the scratch linger for many minutes afterwards.
While overall I feel my anxiety levels are as low as they have been in a while (albeit, this fluctuates), dealing with the constant overhang of this nerve problem is one that I simply will have to continue to learn to live with and adapt to, to the best of my ability. I do various mental exercises to help to evolve my perception of pain. And, every day / block of time I get through, where the symptoms are moderately low or minimal, I celebrate as a tremendous success.
And so that is it for now. Wishing everyone a low (and hopefully no) pain day!